Confused???

well, ok today i had my swimming entry test at the commando camp and yeah it is really near my house! swam well and it really feels good to stay near ur camp.

well, that's beside the point cos these few days have been really cumbersome. firstly we had a commanders' meeting session yesterday. censorship will be applied here but i'm just gonna say what i said yesterday. we had to comment on the men's work attitude and most gave their tardiness when asked to do work. to me, i felt that we should take a step back instead and reflect upon ourselves; whether we have done our part as a commander cos we lead my example before we can actually comment on others. well, it was meant for some people out there and apparently, i didn't mention names. hope that they realised who they are.

Then today, we had another problem with the man. I was the DS and there's UFP and life run in the morning. after which, we need to carry out fatique work. however, those att b and UFP personels had to stay back at the soc ground and thus could not return to do fatigue.

so, eventually, those who went for the life run did. and most of them were complaining while doing cos the att b people weren't. luckily, i sought their understanding that they were still held up at the soc ground. but when they came back, some just headed straight for the canteen; leaving me appalled when i went to ask them to do fatigue. ridiculous reasons were thrown at me which i din accept and i couldn't condone such indifferent antics. I kinda gave up on them cos it really tires me out.

While on 1 hand, i understand how those who worked felt. on the other, why can't the man put themselves in our shoes and try to understand the predicament we are in?! we tried to improve the situation but what can we do if our advice is not heeded? and i use the word advise cos i nv believe in threatening them. perhaps, it may work for some, come to think of it now. true enough, we as commanders should do something about this and yes we're going to talk to them soon. but at certain times, such incessant complains can really make u go bonkers. and i do admit that we're wrong in letting these few people to continue such misdemeanour. actually, it's cos we have given up. perhaps, 1 solution is to make diff bunks the fatigue bunk each day and they'll rotate among themselves. but there'll still be problems of not having sufficient ppl in a bunk at 1 time. there's no absolute solution, but i guess this will be a betta 1.

i guess to be sandwiched in the middle of men and pc is really saddening. the men will just complain to u and ur pc will find fault with u if u didn't ensure. so who will give us their understandings? essentially, no one. but to look at a brighter side, our PCs are not such people.

well, anyway, I've been wanting to join Youth Challenge which is a UN based organisation. really hope to get in so that i will be given the chance to go to those 3rd world countries and help those ppl. cos i've always led such a good life, it's time to help those who're under privilege.