I think i'll have to blog this down in order to get it off my chest. went to uncle's funeral yesterday. was still happily chatting with my cousin before we reached the crematorium. but as he was pushed into the flames and when my relatives started chanting ' brother, go with the flames, dun stay here'(direct translation from hokkien) with sobs in between, i teared silently. I think I've never felt so human before, without great emotions but still a deep sorrow in my heart.

It made me realise how fragile life is. yesterday's night seems peaceful, and while lying on the bed my mind was flooded with thoughts which led me to tears again... I can't afford to lose my loved ones...